Myself,我自己。

从来没有对自己诚实过，每天都要过自欺欺人的生活。
看上去很吵得我，事实上是个可以一天都不说话的小男孩（还小。。），好像自闭的人（但我不是自闭。Xp）
看上去什么都无所谓，其实什么都在意。
看上去很坚强，其实只是把自己的心用铁盒锁起来，也把钥匙弄丢了，搞到很难与人相处。
唉~人生怎么那么难搞啊~

Looooooooooooooooooooooooooong time no Bloooooog~~~XPXPXP

OMFG!!!!

Quite a Long time for me not updating my blog~
TEEEHEEE
lately I have been thinking a lot of stuff since I' m not studying right now~~
by occasionally "pass-by" one of my friends' blog,
I saw the tittle of "dare to dream"(you know who is him...XD)
I given a lot of time to thought about it~(thanks man, for giving me something to think a bout my future...Xp )

DARE TO DREAM~
no matter how stupid, how ridiculous, how hilarious,how....(couldn't think of other stuff to say types of dream)
just dream it, let your self fall to your own dream,
ignore those who laugh and look down at your dream,
HOWEVER,take my advised, whenever there is someone laugh at you while you taking a step to your dream...its the moment that you are CLOSER to your dream!!!
　
DARE MAKE IT TRUE~
just dream itself won't do you anything,
we have to take some action to bring out our dream in reality...
a lot of people love to dream, but they lack of courage to make it true,
they also lack of confidence, when some others make their dream a laugh matter, they will easily give up...
therefore, do not run away, stop not listening to others that whose words is harsh or not very sweet to listen to, just take it.
dream is within your grasp.

Dream~
every day we mustn't stop dreaming, without dream, life is just a plain white paper that give out boring color.
the higher you dream, the higher you can success...(with action taken of-cause...XD )

The TRUTH

What is the "truth" about this universe??

can anyone answer my question??

i have this question in my mind for don't know how many decade, years...

in some fiction story...the author will describe about "truth" different,

they talk about "truth" in existed in everyone heart, it will show your purpose of living..

but that answer doesn't satisfy me...

thus i still looking for the answer....

i have look into the Christian's bible, Buddha's scroll,they only tells me about how should we behave as a human being...they din't tell me about the "truth"...maybe "truth" is not exist in this world??

then why is this question appeared in my head??

you can call me crazy, id1ot, psych0, or something that is telling me that i think too much...

but there is one thing, human being are not 100% perfect and 100% rotten...there are question that even genius couldn't answer...(there are news about genius committed suicide just because he/she could not answer some simple question due to their complex thinking brain)

and sometimes that even people is what we call idiot,stupid or something far more worse than that...able to success in their life...(Thomas Edison who is called idiot when he is around age of 9, he tried to hatch eggs by using his own body when he saw goose hatching its egg )

so do not ever try to look down on people who is slow in learning or lack of ability to learn...

...

Lately...i having weird thoughts...

its like....i keep wondering about the "other" world...

maybe because i don't found any interesting stuff in this world...

this world is totally bored to the MAX!!!!

everyday having same thing repeated....i could just know what will happen without guessing it...

damn!!!!

i just want to feel different things in my every single day....if not...

i 'll just rot to hell....

Feeling weird to be "OLD"...=o=

Holy!!!*&#%!!!
Am I look that OLD???
I'm only 19 at year 2010...people say that I'm more that 25++...
few weeks ago...I was having dinner in a hawker center with my family...
while I waiting my dad and sis with my mom...there is 1 "beer girl"...came near the place where i was sat on...and ask:"老板，要喝酒吗？"（Boss, want have some beer?）...=.=..
.then my mom was like keep laughing...laugh laugh laugh...
Its like...come on!!! why is she asking me instead of my mom...>.<...but I wasn't really mind about that...so I could forget about it after the day...

AND...
there is another guy who is doing the same thing..but at least he is not selling beer...
but what he did is...
when I were having breakfast with my mom in some cafe...that guy approached me from behind when I'm not facing the entrance of the cafe....
he says in hokkien:"老板，要算命吗？哇！你的命真好！"(Boss, interested in fortune telling??wah!you got a good life!)
=.=...
I don't get it...why does he only look at me and telling me those shit even though my back is facing him...he ask only me about the fortune telling but not my mom, or anyone in the cafe...
that is really creep me out...O.O

past?? future??now??

Past...
look...or don't look...
neither will do me any good..cause what done is done, what past is past...
sometimes..when I put in effort to do anythings that i determined...it will turn out 120% failure...
its like...=.=''...WTF!!!
its like when we doing something we want so badly...the God will like to play with us and let us fail to do what we want...
but if we keep doing for don't know how many thousands times till the God will feel bored and say:"Holy!!! you are damn persistent, since you want to do it so badly...then i shall not interfere with your business "
that is how we can success in our life??

Future...
I don"t plan and don't even wanna know my future...
cause in this F***ing world...there is no such word called "plan"...
every time i plan plan plan...it will turn out like a 180 degree turn in our life flow...make my plan a complete turn over...what a let down...=.=
that's why when we don't know something and we don't guess it...it will turn out to be unexpected surprised in our daily life no matter its good or bad...
cause if we plan and tried so hard to complete it...it doesn't matter whether its good or bad...we will feel bored due to unknown reason...=.=



Now...
I only know how to see my past and future...
but I'm such an idiot for the present time...
sometimes...i 'm confused....don't know what should i do...
I tried so hard not do get myself stick to some troubles...and not to stick my nose to others business, but in the end...i can't have it my own way...=.=...

"=.="

Holiday now....
waiting for result...
feel like go to college now...
cause alone at home is freaking killing me...=.=

Haiz....
miss the fun days~
miss my friend~
miss cutie (some...XD)~
in UTAR...

but too bad...
most of them had went to different campus by the day to start next sem for me...
can't see them for sometimes...SAD~SAD~

hope this sem will be an easy going semester for me...XD