Thursday, October 28, 2010

Money, money, money...

Money,
although it couldn't help with every single things in our life,
but without it, lot of things will become hard to reach in life...
Its like a "pass" to get rid of our greediness on our daily life~
Greed is our heart is like a black hole that never full even though you fill it up with every thing you got,
In the good side, greed is some sort of motivation, thing will move your ass around the world,
while as in the other way round, greed will turn to some urge that will makes you forget what you really are or what you really want to reach??achieve??a point that you set long time ago, and as time goes on, it will eventually consume your own self when you indulge yourself in greed in a long time...
sounds scary???
relax~
just treat greed as some kind of drugs...
take it when you REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED IT, not because you SIMPLY WANT IT!!!
because the meaning of need and want are totally different~

lately, I've work my ass real hard to earn some "pass" ,
its not that simple to earn so easily...
for genius type money earner, they need to learn how to be hard working to be the best,
while the hardworking type, they just need to take some time for thinking....cause although with 99% hardworking, that still not enough to be the best, without the 1 % of genius thinking,
it also works the other way round
everything will go off track~
trust me~
XD

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Myself,我自己。

从来没有对自己诚实过,每天都要过自欺欺人的生活。
看上去很吵得我,事实上是个可以一天都不说话的小男孩(还小。。),好像自闭的人(但我不是自闭。Xp)
看上去什么都无所谓,其实什么都在意。
看上去很坚强,其实只是把自己的心用铁盒锁起来,也把钥匙弄丢了,搞到很难与人相处。
唉~人生怎么那么难搞啊~

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Looooooooooooooooooooooooooong time no Bloooooog~~~XPXPXP

OMFG!!!!
Quite a Long time for me not updating my blog~
TEEEHEEE
lately I have been thinking a lot of stuff since I' m not studying right now~~
by occasionally "pass-by" one of my friends' blog,
I saw the tittle of "dare to dream"(you know who is him...XD)
I given a lot of time to thought about it~(thanks man, for giving me something to think a bout my future...Xp )

DARE TO DREAM~
no matter how stupid, how ridiculous, how hilarious,how....(couldn't think of other stuff to say types of dream)
just dream it, let your self fall to your own dream,
ignore those who laugh and look down at your dream,
HOWEVER,take my advised, whenever there is someone laugh at you while you taking a step to your dream...its the moment that you are CLOSER to your dream!!!
 
DARE MAKE IT TRUE~
just dream itself won't do you anything,
we have to take some action to bring out our dream in reality...
a lot of people love to dream, but they lack of courage to make it true,
they also lack of confidence, when some others make their dream a laugh matter, they will easily give up...
therefore, do not run away, stop not listening to others that whose words is harsh or not very sweet to listen to, just take it.
dream is within your grasp.

Dream~
every day we mustn't stop dreaming, without
dream, life is just a plain white paper that give out boring color.
the higher you dream, the higher you can success...(with action taken of-cause...XD )

Thursday, June 24, 2010

The TRUTH

What is the "truth" about this universe??
can anyone answer my question??
i have this question in my mind for don't know how many decade, years...
in some fiction story...the author will describe about "truth" different,
they talk about "truth" in existed in everyone heart, it will show your purpose of living..
but that answer doesn't satisfy me...
thus i still looking for the answer....

i have look into the Christian's bible, Buddha's scroll,they only tells me about how should we behave as a human being...they din't tell me about the "truth"...maybe "truth" is not exist in this world??
then why is this question appeared in my head??

you can call me crazy, id1ot, psych0, or something that is telling me that i think too much...
but there is one thing, human being are not 100% perfect and 100% rotten...there are question that even genius couldn't answer...(there are news about genius committed suicide just because he/she could not answer some simple question due to their complex thinking brain)
and sometimes that even people is what we call idiot,stupid or something far more worse than that...able to success in their life...(Thomas Edison who is called idiot when he is around age of 9, he tried to hatch eggs by using his own body when he saw goose hatching its egg )

so do not ever try to look down on people who is slow in learning or lack of ability to learn...


...

Lately...i having weird thoughts...
its like....i keep wondering about the "other" world...
maybe because i don't found any interesting stuff in this world...

this world is totally bored to the MAX!!!!
everyday having same thing repeated....i could just know what will happen without guessing it...
damn!!!!

i just want to feel different things in my every single day....if not...
i 'll just rot to hell....

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Feeling weird to be "OLD"...=o=

Holy!!!*&#%!!!
Am I look that OLD???
I'm only 19 at year 2010...people say that I'm more that 25++...
few weeks ago...I was having dinner in a hawker center with my family...
while I waiting my dad and sis with my mom...there is 1 "beer girl"...came near the place where i was sat on...and ask:"老板,要喝酒吗?"(Boss, want have some beer?)...=.=..
.then my mom was like keep laughing...laugh laugh laugh...
Its like...come on!!! why is she asking me instead of my mom...>.<...but I wasn't really mind about that...so I could forget about it after the day...

AND...
there is another guy who is doing the same thing..but at least he is not selling beer...
but what he did is...
when I were having breakfast with my mom in some cafe...that guy approached me from behind when I'm not facing the entrance of the cafe....
he says in hokkien:"老板,要算命吗?哇!你的命真好!"(Boss, interested in fortune telling??wah!you got a good life!)
=.=...
I don't get it...why does he only look at me and telling me those shit even though my back is facing him...he ask only me about the fortune telling but not my mom, or anyone in the cafe...
that is really creep me out...O.O

Sunday, May 16, 2010

past?? future??now??


Past...
look...or don't look...
neither will do me any good..cause what done is done, what past is past...
sometimes..when I put in effort to do anythings that i determined...it will turn out 120% failure...
its like...=.=''...WTF!!!
its like when we doing something we want so badly...the God will like to play with us and let us fail to do what we want...
but if we keep doing for don't know how many thousands times till the God will feel bored and say:"Holy!!! you are damn persistent, since you want to do it so badly...then i shall not interfere with your business "
that is how we can success in our life??

Future...
I don"t plan and don't even wanna know my future...
cause in this F***ing world...there is no such word called "plan"...
every time i plan plan plan...it will turn out like a 180 degree turn in our life flow...make my plan a complete turn over...what a let down...=.=
that's why when we don't know something and we don't guess it...it will turn out to be unexpected surprised in our daily life no matter its good or bad...
cause if we plan and tried so hard to complete it...it doesn't matter whether its good or bad...we will feel bored due to unknown reason...=.=



Now...
I only know how to see my past and future...
but I'm such an idiot for the present time...
sometimes...i 'm confused....don't know what should i do...
I tried so hard not do get myself stick to some troubles...and not to stick my nose to others business, but in the end...i can't have it my own way...=.=...

Thursday, May 13, 2010

"=.="

Holiday now....
waiting for result...
feel like go to college now...
cause alone at home is freaking killing me...=.=

Haiz....
miss the fun days~
miss my friend~
miss cutie (some...XD)~
in UTAR...

but too bad...
most of them had went to different campus by the day to start next sem for me...
can't see them for sometimes...SAD~SAD~

hope this sem will be an easy going semester for me...XD

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Bored of my post???XD

Feel BOOOOORED of my blog???
you're lying if you say no!!haha!!!
no offense!!!

I just don't know how to create a nice or some creative and beautiful(??) blog..Xp
Eeeeevery day, my mind is 0(ZERO)!!!!Means nothing!!!
that's why i' m a bit of out of my mind(dreaming....)
that causes my concentration to do things is 0%...haha
when i went to college...i couldn't pay a single % of concentrate to the class
(holy *&%$)how am i suppose to study!!!
plus the ADHD i start to doubt my future...(do i have to do that??beats me..)



Wednesday, March 3, 2010

What a difficult world...

What a difficult world...
When you possessed something you don't really want in your hand, you will start to think about what other people have is better than what you have...
that mind concept will make you to careless about what you have in your hand, after that when you lost it you don't really think about it, but the main thing is when you lost what is in your hand and you couldn't get what you want...you will start to regret of not value about what you have in your hand...
this is what we call human nature, not human mind...
even so many years..human can't deny this nature and keep doing the same thing for generations...they only realized when they done it not when they hear it...cause when they hear, they will always think that they will never do something like that but in the end, they still do the same thing...
what a joke...>.<
people always says that they are not gonna do like this with a lot confidence but still, they can't defy the human nature in their mind...and hurt themselves and lots of people that care about them...

...

ADHD
known as Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
go view Wikipedia if you guys don't understand what is that...XD
I can't really explained what is ADHD,
i only know that this is a mental sickness that related to lack of ability to learn..
why do i say so??
i MAYBE got this shit...
cause i no matter how hard i study in Uni....
i still can't get to understand what the hell are those shit talk about...DAMN!!!
In this F***ING world...those who lack of learning ability and can't study are doomed means that they can't survive...
cause this world is too F***ING stick to reality...
no cert?? no work for you..

DAMN!!!!!!!!
how am i gonna survive??
Beg to any God are not gonna do me any good....
SHIT!!!
This world is gonna turn me into a Psycho!!!


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Start Uni sem 3 in Utar (1st of march)...

DAMN UTAR!!!!
bored in the 1st day by entering 1st tutorial class,
finance class, tutor is ms.NGO
tutor that can talk for more than 1hour in class but can't understand what she talking about( in my previous sem)...==
DAMN!!!
what damn luck can i be in Utar,
why can't i get a better lecture???

2nd day in UTAR,
no class...
but still have to go utar for meeting at 2.30pm...
then meeting end when every one went home,
er...cant say a really productive meeting, cause i still don't get what is in the conclusion in the meeting, so...
just don't care about it...

holy f*** to Utar(as always)!!!
make me regret to choose this Uni...
or i can say, i have no choice but to choose utar cause my dad got high expectation on Utar...
"UTAR
My Choice"
make me wanna spit on the "my choice" word,
and change to "no choice"
sigh~
why do i have to born in such a boring where??

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Bored...

What a bored day...
can't find a thing to kill the bored...damn!!!
today is the day for exam result to post on utar portal, but...
the utar result don' t look good at all, make me wanna scold ********to utaR

boreeeeed afternoon...zzz
makes me wanna sleep but when i jump onto the bed, i just can't sleep...haih..
then on FB almost whole day...but sit in front of computer is not good for my health due to radiation that inflict from the monitor .....

bored evening...
still same, nothing to do at all beside FB again...

Bored night,
FB again...
clock is ticking at 12am...
still online...XD




******** UTAR!!!!

I F***ing hate you!!! Enemy of mankind!!! UTAR!!!
F*** UTAR to hell!!
Utar System is s***, the result for Semester 2 Exam is out... only for morning, then they closed it down on afternoon...(shoot!!) that day i was at my dad's home town, Muar...friend call me and ask about my result, then i was like ...stun??
then quickly drive my dad' s jeep to find a nearby CC to online, CC sucks...just a little bit game but lucky its cheap just RM1 per hour...XD
WAIT A MINUTE!!! i din not come to CC just to play game...==...find IE to open..
Cheap CC...still use window 98...damn freaking S***...open IE cause no Mozilla ...bored with it...>.<> Utar portal!!!log in...click on exam result...but damn!!!"you are not authorized to view this page." words is popped out on the page...i keep refresh and log in and out utar portal but still....
the same...
In Facebook, some friend told me that the result should be out at 4 pm...look at my watch: 3.55pm still got 5 minute left...
1 minute later...i cant wait for another 4 minute then i play CS Lan...most of people in that CC play CS..at 1st i thought they were pro later then i realised that they just a walking shooting target...==...keep own them with just shotgun and handgun.. XD
play for 1 hour and check again...MOTHER F*****!!!
still can't see my result...
feel beh song then leave the CC.
C**** UTAR ...waste my to wait so long in CC yet still can't see the result... damn!!!
..l..( middle finger)

Saturday, February 20, 2010

what's wrong with this world??

Holy shoot!!(a replacement for the word "shit")
life is getting very very bored after go to university,
during primary and secondary school...
those time is like very slow but now it seem to be too fast for me...
those time were great memories for me
nothing to worry or busy...
in university...
lots of stuff to busy, to be actual
i been busy after i graduate from my secondary school and before study at Utar,
join VAD( volunteer aid detachment),
LEO(but not very active)
those two is deadly enough to keep me busy...XP
the only time for my entertainment is in Utar...
most of them were students from different state...
i been (how to say this?? is jealous or envy) of them,
nothing to worry, stay outside (that is the best thing of study i far place cause they don't have the curfew ( don't know is this the word cause my English is suck to the max...XD) word is their dictionary)
the only thing they can do is just study and have fun...

Don' know what i' m gonna say
change topic...XD

when i was small boy,
i always wondering why we cant rotate the wheel of time and make it back to the past
if not ,its gonna be damn cool
and correct lots of mistake i done before...XD
but now,when i think a bout it...
neh, who cares back to past...cause for me,
no past, no me(present) then no future,
the past is what we left behind and to look forward for a better future for us
or to be exact, the future is build up by the past
and the present is to experience the progress...
you can only look but not haunted by your past, every thing you do in the past is for the future you to smile and look at it...XD







Thursday, January 28, 2010

what i hate about life...=o=

People says:
"In this world,
life is not that simple,
you have to work hard to get what you desire."
and so-on bla bla bla...
Let me get this straight...
what they say about life is half of a bull shit...XD
For myself...life CAN be simple with 3 things in your mind,
1st: its just depend on how you see things in your life...
2nd: do not let great wealth stain on your eyes,
3rd: (oops...i forgot..sorry..Xp)

In my life, i lead a simple life by simply ignored friends advice and criticsm...
and do what i want...XD
but in the end, i screwed myself in some deep shit...
i can blame no one but myself because its my own decision that cause it...>.<
and the most important thing i know is i never regret about what i did..
a person will grew up and become more matured with doing mistakes in their life.

in my life i only hate those people who is self righteous like :
some people just don't learn that even childish person could also grow up but in different ways to get matured...=o=
they only think that childish person is a useless shit that could not give contribution...
this is what i disagree the most in this world...
why people have to be so selfish and so self-righteous just because they a little bit mature
for me...this kind of people is useless because their could not even handle their own simple life and keep complain about things they not able to handle...

P.S: about what i post is about what i don't really like about this world, please do not think that i' m trying to offense anyone. Yes... anyone...

1st Blog for Leon Kerk

1st blog for a guy call Leon Kerk ...although he don't know what to post in his blog but he will try to post something interesting to keep this blog more alive...XD