Feeling weird to be "OLD"...=o=

Holy!!!*&#%!!!
Am I look that OLD???
I'm only 19 at year 2010...people say that I'm more that 25++...
few weeks ago...I was having dinner in a hawker center with my family...
while I waiting my dad and sis with my mom...there is 1 "beer girl"...came near the place where i was sat on...and ask:"老板，要喝酒吗？"（Boss, want have some beer?）...=.=..
.then my mom was like keep laughing...laugh laugh laugh...
Its like...come on!!! why is she asking me instead of my mom...>.<...but I wasn't really mind about that...so I could forget about it after the day...

AND...
there is another guy who is doing the same thing..but at least he is not selling beer...
but what he did is...
when I were having breakfast with my mom in some cafe...that guy approached me from behind when I'm not facing the entrance of the cafe....
he says in hokkien:"老板，要算命吗？哇！你的命真好！"(Boss, interested in fortune telling??wah!you got a good life!)
=.=...
I don't get it...why does he only look at me and telling me those shit even though my back is facing him...he ask only me about the fortune telling but not my mom, or anyone in the cafe...
that is really creep me out...O.O

past?? future??now??

Past...
look...or don't look...
neither will do me any good..cause what done is done, what past is past...
sometimes..when I put in effort to do anythings that i determined...it will turn out 120% failure...
its like...=.=''...WTF!!!
its like when we doing something we want so badly...the God will like to play with us and let us fail to do what we want...
but if we keep doing for don't know how many thousands times till the God will feel bored and say:"Holy!!! you are damn persistent, since you want to do it so badly...then i shall not interfere with your business "
that is how we can success in our life??

Future...
I don"t plan and don't even wanna know my future...
cause in this F***ing world...there is no such word called "plan"...
every time i plan plan plan...it will turn out like a 180 degree turn in our life flow...make my plan a complete turn over...what a let down...=.=
that's why when we don't know something and we don't guess it...it will turn out to be unexpected surprised in our daily life no matter its good or bad...
cause if we plan and tried so hard to complete it...it doesn't matter whether its good or bad...we will feel bored due to unknown reason...=.=



Now...
I only know how to see my past and future...
but I'm such an idiot for the present time...
sometimes...i 'm confused....don't know what should i do...
I tried so hard not do get myself stick to some troubles...and not to stick my nose to others business, but in the end...i can't have it my own way...=.=...

"=.="

Holiday now....
waiting for result...
feel like go to college now...
cause alone at home is freaking killing me...=.=

Haiz....
miss the fun days~
miss my friend~
miss cutie (some...XD)~
in UTAR...

but too bad...
most of them had went to different campus by the day to start next sem for me...
can't see them for sometimes...SAD~SAD~

hope this sem will be an easy going semester for me...XD

Bored of my post???XD

Feel BOOOOORED of my blog???
you're lying if you say no!!haha!!!
no offense!!!

I just don't know how to create a nice or some creative and beautiful(??) blog..Xp
Eeeeevery day, my mind is 0(ZERO)!!!!Means nothing!!!
that's why i' m a bit of out of my mind(dreaming....)
that causes my concentration to do things is 0%...haha
when i went to college...i couldn't pay a single % of concentrate to the class
(holy *&%$)how am i suppose to study!!!
plus the ADHD i start to doubt my future...(do i have to do that??beats me..)