chinese new year....

Chinese new is just around the corner!!!!!
just feel empty in my heart...wonder why??
maybe i' m just miss my granpa??who already left the world 1 year ago...
damn~don't even know how to describe him...but all i know that he is a kind person and like to bring me out for "yamcha" when i' m around age if 5??
last yeAR, it was a damn shock for me when my dad called me and said that granpa is gone...gone forever..., i packed up my stuff and wait for my mum to depart,my dad already wentback to muar that's why i only wait for my mum...i' just cant control my self and i even overspeed on high way....around 160++km/h(trust me, its honda accord,its freaking steady even the speed is over 150km/p... plus my "speed limiter"(my mum) din't even realise that i overspeed,cause she fall asleep...)
i cried at the moment i saw my granpa...lying down on the bed before he is shifted into the coffin...
that is the day that i dont even want to have in my life....i even prayed that i rather "sunder" my lifespan to my granpa and granma...hope that they will have a long life...because our family actually is just like a plate of scatter sand...i fear that if my granparents wasnt there...they might not return to that house FOREVER...that is my greatest fear in my life....i rather pay up my life as a cost to avoid that shit.....but in the end.......things still happen......JUST WHAT THE DAMN SHIT IS HAPPENING!!!!!!!!DAMN!
i miss granpa....this just wont goes off my mind and heart......
just hoping that this coming chinese new year is a bit "different" than any other in the pass...XD

Daily routine...just work...

Wake up, eat, work, eat, work, sleep....
then continue like this every day...
What The Hell~ miss lots of good things in my youth........Darn it!!!!!!!!
if this goes on for another few months, i'm gonna be a working machine........
work work work.....no choice but to work........i wanna play,study, and .....??what else??
damn...forget it..
endure,endure........itself is an art....of I forgot what it call.........neh........who cares!!!
every human being have a lifespan of average of 65 to 75 year...
its only take 25 years to complete study ever since we born....then we go work....
after a long period of working we go retire....then buy a coffin(shocking!!!!buy coffin??or a grave??)....
just a cycle of human life.....so boring...
is there anything else that can spice up the cycle to make it more fun??
guess not........







i know its weird~
actually...this just pop up from my head out of sudden.....then i type out~

Money, money, money...

Money,
although it couldn't help with every single things in our life,
but without it, lot of things will become hard to reach in life...
Its like a "pass" to get rid of our greediness on our daily life~
Greed is our heart is like a black hole that never full even though you fill it up with every thing you got,
In the good side, greed is some sort of motivation, thing will move your ass around the world,
while as in the other way round, greed will turn to some urge that will makes you forget what you really are or what you really want to reach??achieve??a point that you set long time ago, and as time goes on, it will eventually consume your own self when you indulge yourself in greed in a long time...
sounds scary???
relax~
just treat greed as some kind of drugs...
take it when you REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED IT, not because you SIMPLY WANT IT!!!
because the meaning of need and want are totally different~

lately, I've work my ass real hard to earn some "pass" ,
its not that simple to earn so easily...
for genius type money earner, they need to learn how to be hard working to be the best,
while the hardworking type, they just need to take some time for thinking....cause although with 99% hardworking, that still not enough to be the best, without the 1 % of genius thinking,
it also works the other way round
everything will go off track~
trust me~
XD

Myself,我自己。

从来没有对自己诚实过，每天都要过自欺欺人的生活。
看上去很吵得我，事实上是个可以一天都不说话的小男孩（还小。。），好像自闭的人（但我不是自闭。Xp）
看上去什么都无所谓，其实什么都在意。
看上去很坚强，其实只是把自己的心用铁盒锁起来，也把钥匙弄丢了，搞到很难与人相处。
唉~人生怎么那么难搞啊~

Looooooooooooooooooooooooooong time no Bloooooog~~~XPXPXP

OMFG!!!!

Quite a Long time for me not updating my blog~
TEEEHEEE
lately I have been thinking a lot of stuff since I' m not studying right now~~
by occasionally "pass-by" one of my friends' blog,
I saw the tittle of "dare to dream"(you know who is him...XD)
I given a lot of time to thought about it~(thanks man, for giving me something to think a bout my future...Xp )

DARE TO DREAM~
no matter how stupid, how ridiculous, how hilarious,how....(couldn't think of other stuff to say types of dream)
just dream it, let your self fall to your own dream,
ignore those who laugh and look down at your dream,
HOWEVER,take my advised, whenever there is someone laugh at you while you taking a step to your dream...its the moment that you are CLOSER to your dream!!!
　
DARE MAKE IT TRUE~
just dream itself won't do you anything,
we have to take some action to bring out our dream in reality...
a lot of people love to dream, but they lack of courage to make it true,
they also lack of confidence, when some others make their dream a laugh matter, they will easily give up...
therefore, do not run away, stop not listening to others that whose words is harsh or not very sweet to listen to, just take it.
dream is within your grasp.

Dream~
every day we mustn't stop dreaming, without dream, life is just a plain white paper that give out boring color.
the higher you dream, the higher you can success...(with action taken of-cause...XD )

The TRUTH

What is the "truth" about this universe??

can anyone answer my question??

i have this question in my mind for don't know how many decade, years...

in some fiction story...the author will describe about "truth" different,

they talk about "truth" in existed in everyone heart, it will show your purpose of living..

but that answer doesn't satisfy me...

thus i still looking for the answer....

i have look into the Christian's bible, Buddha's scroll,they only tells me about how should we behave as a human being...they din't tell me about the "truth"...maybe "truth" is not exist in this world??

then why is this question appeared in my head??

you can call me crazy, id1ot, psych0, or something that is telling me that i think too much...

but there is one thing, human being are not 100% perfect and 100% rotten...there are question that even genius couldn't answer...(there are news about genius committed suicide just because he/she could not answer some simple question due to their complex thinking brain)

and sometimes that even people is what we call idiot,stupid or something far more worse than that...able to success in their life...(Thomas Edison who is called idiot when he is around age of 9, he tried to hatch eggs by using his own body when he saw goose hatching its egg )

so do not ever try to look down on people who is slow in learning or lack of ability to learn...

...

Lately...i having weird thoughts...

its like....i keep wondering about the "other" world...

maybe because i don't found any interesting stuff in this world...

this world is totally bored to the MAX!!!!

everyday having same thing repeated....i could just know what will happen without guessing it...

damn!!!!

i just want to feel different things in my every single day....if not...

i 'll just rot to hell....