what did i did wrong???

What did i did wrong??
come on, just tell me what is it??
as you know(sound familiar??),
you may need time, but its only for your self, as for me~~
I don't need it, because......I can't have it(things will get messy if you know what i mean)
everything for me will be done easily, unless i told you that i need time.....
please....don't run away....if you understand what i said....

As from different person's view point, don't use your way of solution on me...cause its useless on me....
and, please...i beg you...don't simply use any solution without asking me unless the problem is not related to me~~~~
just give me a chance to know, to understand, cause if you don't....i' ll let you know this....that is i' m tired of waiting....
you can say that i m over thinking about this kind of things, but telling you the truth....
I never thought about this, just that some god damn negative feelings is my heart is getting stronger as the time pass.
And here i' m...lead by the feelings and type it out without a second thought....
amazing aye???

life is simple

life is fucking simple....and why the hell are we making it so damn complicated???
the reason is freaking simple...is that we sit around and think so fucking much about things that are haven't or not going to happen with taking any action....(dont come and find me if you are disagree about this)
why the hell do we think too much????
its another simple reason, it because of 1 word...that is fear...
the feeling of fear that keep us stand on your on feet and not moving around...keep us imprisoned in our very own "chamber of darkness" in our heart...make us scare of contacting the outside world....

fuck!!!there's no inspiration in my head for freaking half year!!!!

WALAO~

WALAO!!!!!
DAMN TIRED>>>>
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO~~~=.=

chinese new year....

Chinese new is just around the corner!!!!!
just feel empty in my heart...wonder why??
maybe i' m just miss my granpa??who already left the world 1 year ago...
damn~don't even know how to describe him...but all i know that he is a kind person and like to bring me out for "yamcha" when i' m around age if 5??
last yeAR, it was a damn shock for me when my dad called me and said that granpa is gone...gone forever..., i packed up my stuff and wait for my mum to depart,my dad already wentback to muar that's why i only wait for my mum...i' just cant control my self and i even overspeed on high way....around 160++km/h(trust me, its honda accord,its freaking steady even the speed is over 150km/p... plus my "speed limiter"(my mum) din't even realise that i overspeed,cause she fall asleep...)
i cried at the moment i saw my granpa...lying down on the bed before he is shifted into the coffin...
that is the day that i dont even want to have in my life....i even prayed that i rather "sunder" my lifespan to my granpa and granma...hope that they will have a long life...because our family actually is just like a plate of scatter sand...i fear that if my granparents wasnt there...they might not return to that house FOREVER...that is my greatest fear in my life....i rather pay up my life as a cost to avoid that shit.....but in the end.......things still happen......JUST WHAT THE DAMN SHIT IS HAPPENING!!!!!!!!DAMN!
i miss granpa....this just wont goes off my mind and heart......
just hoping that this coming chinese new year is a bit "different" than any other in the pass...XD

Daily routine...just work...

Wake up, eat, work, eat, work, sleep....
then continue like this every day...
What The Hell~ miss lots of good things in my youth........Darn it!!!!!!!!
if this goes on for another few months, i'm gonna be a working machine........
work work work.....no choice but to work........i wanna play,study, and .....??what else??
damn...forget it..
endure,endure........itself is an art....of I forgot what it call.........neh........who cares!!!
every human being have a lifespan of average of 65 to 75 year...
its only take 25 years to complete study ever since we born....then we go work....
after a long period of working we go retire....then buy a coffin(shocking!!!!buy coffin??or a grave??)....
just a cycle of human life.....so boring...
is there anything else that can spice up the cycle to make it more fun??
guess not........







i know its weird~
actually...this just pop up from my head out of sudden.....then i type out~

Money, money, money...

Money,
although it couldn't help with every single things in our life,
but without it, lot of things will become hard to reach in life...
Its like a "pass" to get rid of our greediness on our daily life~
Greed is our heart is like a black hole that never full even though you fill it up with every thing you got,
In the good side, greed is some sort of motivation, thing will move your ass around the world,
while as in the other way round, greed will turn to some urge that will makes you forget what you really are or what you really want to reach??achieve??a point that you set long time ago, and as time goes on, it will eventually consume your own self when you indulge yourself in greed in a long time...
sounds scary???
relax~
just treat greed as some kind of drugs...
take it when you REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED IT, not because you SIMPLY WANT IT!!!
because the meaning of need and want are totally different~

lately, I've work my ass real hard to earn some "pass" ,
its not that simple to earn so easily...
for genius type money earner, they need to learn how to be hard working to be the best,
while the hardworking type, they just need to take some time for thinking....cause although with 99% hardworking, that still not enough to be the best, without the 1 % of genius thinking,
it also works the other way round
everything will go off track~
trust me~
XD